Why after I like this guy can I not think straight?

I'm trying to go back to feeling how I felt before and I want to be who I was before but for example when I get ready I usually style my hair 1st then my makeup. And right before I do my makeup I wash my face. Well when I'm trying to feel back to normal I do stuff and I thought I was going to get up & out of bed & do my hair & get ready. Well I sat infront of my mirror and then I got up and decided to go to the bathroom and turn on the faucet (like I was going to wash my face) and I wasn't even thinking about it and then I went to the kitchen like I was going to get something to drink but then I didn't even feel like it so I went back to the bathroom to see if the water was warm yet (I was waiting for it to get warm but I wasn't even thinking about it) and then when I got back I was like "why am I even running the water??" because I do my hair 1st and idk why I even got up (I was walking in the direction of the mirror to do my hair but then I went to the sink in the bathroom)....... And another time I was at college and I was getting ready to leave and everything and it was snowing out and I was walking out like I had been already perfect & ready and then I realized I forgot to get my coat out of the closet & so I got it & someone even said "wow what's wrong with you?" and I was thinking the same thing like wtf am I doing??? Like it's common sense to get your coat if it's in the building's closet!